Renaissance

最近在看哈里.G.法兰克福的《论扯淡》。

扯淡这个词是扯蛋的洁版，在台湾，书名翻译是《放屁！》，够狠吧？英文原名是《On Bullshit》。到了国内，“放屁！”就只能被清洁到《论扯淡》，还不敢彻底粗俗直接。序言里居然还假惺惺地说把“论”和“扯淡”放在一起更有味道，去他妈的味道。

书里头用很严密的逻辑去推出扯蛋的定义，以及它和撒谎的区别。虽然我不是很笨，但看这本书有时候还真需要脑筋绕几个弯才能明白过来。至于扯蛋到底是什么，虽然书本上有很明确的解释，但还是不如实际的例子来的有力。试举一例。

去超市买内裤，男式的。

刚到那货柜，旁边就一中年妇女营业员上来。

-“你穿这个牌子好，很舒服的。”

瞬间被雷到无法动弹，过了半晌我才缓过来只好问：

-“你穿过？”

营业员说：“真的，很好的，面料很好，肯定很舒服。”

我：。。。。。

想不到世界上还有这样的推销方式。

这，就是完完全全，确确实实，淋漓尽致的扯蛋。

呃，首先这个标题很有“标题党”的风范，但我说的不是有关恐怖惊悚或者变态杀人的事，要说的是实实在在的现状。

算上这个夏天，已经在上海度过了四个，2004年以来，从来没感觉今年这样变态的热。或许土生土长的上海人早就习惯了，但对于“外地人”，还是真不习惯这样的气候。前三年，他们说来说去地说梅雨天，但我似乎都没觉得像他们说的那么恐怖。而现在，才终于发觉真的很让人受不了。

第一天正式上班，好累。

可累的不是因为工作量或者工作强度，是因为昨晚没睡好。我这个人总是无法摆脱这样的毛病：有事儿来的时候就紧张就不安。虽然到公司也有一段时间了，但今天是第一天，心里头还真就又紧张起来了。或者其实不是心里头紧张，是昨天才搬家，第一天住的房第一天睡的床，总是会不习惯的。因为我从初中开始就在校寄宿，这感觉从来没停止过，每次搬过一张床，第一个晚上准是睡不着的，就算睡不着，也都睡地不爽不舒服。三天一过，我就能完全适应它了，到了那时，就是“恋上你自己的床”。

我们家以前是养过猫和狗的，都挺好。

那只猫是一只普通的，老虎那样黄和黑相间的皮毛。刚抓来的时候，毛茸茸的，瑟瑟发抖着蜷在角落里面不敢出来见人。给它准备了食物，鱼拌饭，放在那里它也不出来吃。只有等人都走开了，没有脚步声了，它才偷偷出来狼吞虎咽一顿，那是真饿了。

有一天，书桓和依萍逛街，经过一水果摊儿，女摊主向他们打招呼，说：“先生小姐买苹果吧，新上市的苹果！”依萍瞅了苹果一眼，立刻惊奇地叫道：“哇！好大好红好漂亮的苹果！ 书桓，我们要不要买一些这活像艺术品的苹果送给我妈？”

书桓深情而又一本正经地点头说：“要！一定要买！”依萍说：“书桓！你真好，感谢你的善解人意，妈妈见了这么红这么大这么漂亮的苹果一定很高兴，我仿佛已经看到了妈妈高兴的样子！”

书桓突然叹了口气，握住依萍的一只手说：“依萍！今天你若不提起给伯母买苹果，我还意识不到我们做儿女的应对长辈担负的责任。就拿我来说吧，我曾一百次一千次一万次地对自己说，今生今世，我要把我的一切毫无保留地献给你，你要到天涯海角我跟着你，你要赴汤蹈火我陪着你，也许，我不能给你幸福和快乐，但我可以让你始终能拥有我而感到幸福和快乐……”

This morning,when I was having our Risk Evaluation lesson,a phone call was in and I ran out of the classroom to pick it up.Shocking! It was a rejection anouncemet from a real eastate company that few days ago told me to join their paper assessments.The vital reason was my specialty didn't match their needs.

In September 2005,the Institute of Civil Engineering of Tongji University launched a brand new specialty called Engineering Disaster Prevention and Reduction.This very new and particular specialty was set to meet the new needs of our society and country as well as this engineering profession for all engineeing disaster prevention and reduction.Happily,I registered for this specialty at once,hoping a very integrated courses study  and a good future.Because,the propagater of this specialty on the Specialty Selection Motivation meeting addressed a exciting speach.His declearation included the integrated courses we are going to have such as Engineering Disaster Prevetion,Engineering Economics,Engineering Insurance,Engineering Statue.Indeed these courses are ones that other specialty students are not going to have,especially the one that we are based on--Construction Engineering.This "based on" refered to a absolute fact that we disaster prevention students have already studied all courses that construction engineering students studied,and we have additional courses mentioned above.

According to the adresser who actually is a professor of the Department of Structure and Disaster Prevention of the Institute,since the society needs more and more prevention for the engineering constructions(including ordinary building,undeground engineering,dams,bridges and so on) instead of construction,graduates of this specialty would hopefully find a fine job,and even a very good career.But after one year's study,we are now facing a more and more severe employmnt situation for all specialties students.Exordinary tragedy for us disaster prevention students is that we HAVE TO tell the companies that we are construction engineering students.Once we tell them the truth,they will immediately turn us down,speaking:"We really don't need that specialty.".Nomatter how hard we try  to explain the reality that we are fully construction engineering based,they just want to show a reality that we are not welcome.

Not only one time have I heard from my classmates that the name of our specialty had kicked them out of the door of employment,but I myself have got the same sadness occurred to me.How can we expect to be hired?Right things to do are either to conceal the truth or lie to the companies,I guess.

听广播，很偶然地，又听到了一直在搜索却又一直都没准确搜索到的频道和节目：纯子咖啡馆。现在它改名叫纯子咖啡馆了，我记得以前不是这个名的。但不管名字是什么，内容没变：说一些可以触动你心底的东西，听一些非常经典的歌曲，在一笑一颦中就这么舒适地满足一个两个小时。

今天，它的话题是小时候的玩意儿，虽然主持人可能年纪在三十多四十抑或上了五十，但她说的玩意儿感觉和我小时候也挺像。当然，那些玩意儿我没仔细听，倒是想起了小时候自己玩的一些玩意儿。

音乐本身没有错，音乐带给人的不管是欢乐还是悲伤的体会，它总是给你美好的感觉的，没有音乐会因为要让你痛苦而创作。我这么说是因为就算是一份让世界上很多人听了都想要自杀的《黑色星期天》音乐礼物，它总算让人体会了作者的深刻悲伤。虽然它带来的宏观结果是悲惨的，但它对于曾经聆听它的个体来说，肯定是正面的。体会悲伤同样是一种财富。